It is the fourth day that I've been eating cooked food. It started on the day I set up this blog. I had a nagging thought to eat grilled pork liver. On my way to buy liver, I also bought some eggplants. I didn't really grill the liver. I just seared it using my oven-top grill, one which I wanted to give away a few weeks earlier so I won't be tempted to cook my food with it. The liver was delicious. Eyeing the eggplants, I also cooked them with a little oil using the same grill and ate them slowly. Nothing impressive. My mind wandered on to other food and I went out again to buy a meal of rice and chicken. Yum!
I planned on going back to raw diet the next day but somehow didn't. Maybe the next day, I thought and still didn't. On the second day I was feeling bloated but managed to feel okay by drinking soda. On the third day, yesterday, I ate bananas out of convenience. Today, I had no more craving for cooked food but decided to eat more of it anyway, thinking that it might be a long while before I get to it again. After a meal of rice and chicken, I had chips, chocolates, coffee and ice cream. I had a guiltless indulgence. As I was eating, I thought, My body still resonates with processed and cooked food. I need to change my vibration.
My detour to cooked food this time was a different experience from one I had a month earlier when I decided to eat out with a friend for the purpose of bonding. I had plenty of bonding time over cooked food with friends but after a week, when I had a bad case of back and neck pains associated with PMS, one which I didn't have anymore for the past several months since I started eating all-raw, I was furious with myself, my friends and my world. I went into anti-social mode.
I remember a dream I had before I woke up this morning. I am staying in a hotel room which a friend found for me on the net. A freebie. The ceiling is dirty. The bed is sagging. The room is filled with body care stuff belonging to a previous lady occupant. Applying the gestalt dreamwork technique, I asked myself, What stuff do I have in my home that belongs to the old me and which no longer serves me?
I guess I should go ahead with my decision to get rid of my oven-top grill. And the stove.
I planned on going back to raw diet the next day but somehow didn't. Maybe the next day, I thought and still didn't. On the second day I was feeling bloated but managed to feel okay by drinking soda. On the third day, yesterday, I ate bananas out of convenience. Today, I had no more craving for cooked food but decided to eat more of it anyway, thinking that it might be a long while before I get to it again. After a meal of rice and chicken, I had chips, chocolates, coffee and ice cream. I had a guiltless indulgence. As I was eating, I thought, My body still resonates with processed and cooked food. I need to change my vibration.
My detour to cooked food this time was a different experience from one I had a month earlier when I decided to eat out with a friend for the purpose of bonding. I had plenty of bonding time over cooked food with friends but after a week, when I had a bad case of back and neck pains associated with PMS, one which I didn't have anymore for the past several months since I started eating all-raw, I was furious with myself, my friends and my world. I went into anti-social mode.
I remember a dream I had before I woke up this morning. I am staying in a hotel room which a friend found for me on the net. A freebie. The ceiling is dirty. The bed is sagging. The room is filled with body care stuff belonging to a previous lady occupant. Applying the gestalt dreamwork technique, I asked myself, What stuff do I have in my home that belongs to the old me and which no longer serves me?
I guess I should go ahead with my decision to get rid of my oven-top grill. And the stove.
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